I’m usually hashing it out against boys – primarily asian boys. Here’s my first positive entry on that topic.
My very last hamster passed away on the 18th of August. He was the last of three brothers – Dash, Dot and Dex. I miss them all dearly.
Whenever I lose one of my babies, I typically wait a few days before I can bring myself to clear out their former home. This became a habit after I lost my very first hamster, Dori (not one of the brothers mentioned above). I was balling my eyes out and my mom told me to just leave the cage alone first. I then went over to my now-ex-boyfriend’s house for comfort. So now I need to feel a widdle better before dumping the remains of the last place one of my babies lived.
So I was finally able to do it today. Then I picked up my mini vacuum cleaner and gasped. Recently, my coworker and I discussed how we react when we freak out. She goes completely dead silent. Some people scream. I gasp. There was one of those really thick super black hard spiders in the mini vacuum. With a distinct D: expression on my face, I took the mini vacuum outside to the front yard. I stood there frozen, staring with that same D: expression for a pretty good few minutes when I heard the garage door open and close. Then I heard someone walking along the side of the house. Please be my brother, please be my brother, please be my brother. My brother appeared and said, “Ello.”
Still with that same D: expression and with my arm still extended as far away from me as possible while holding the mini vacuum, I whimpered, “Can you help me?”
“With what?”
“There’s a spider in here and I need to get it out.”
The poor spider trapped inside appeared to move from one end to the other as my brother took the mini vacuum from me. ”He’s freaking out,” he noted. ”No… he’s de-EAaad.”
I whimpered, “So… he just …crawled in there… and…”
“He made some webs in there….”
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Just so you all know, I love all living things. I hate to know that anything dies.
Anyway, the point of this blog entry was: Today, I was incredibly grateful my brother was home.





